Journey so far…


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The road and my car

I couldn’t sleep that night; and was tossing and turning in my bed. I tried keeping two pillows under my head. Nothing seemed to work. I slept finally at around 1AM and woke up at 4. I picked up the book – “weekend getaways from Hyderabad” out of sheer boredom. I hit upon Nagarjuna Sagar some 180 kms away from Hyderabad.

It was time to leave at 6AM; and I packed a pair of clothes just in case I decide to stay for the night. I tanked up on fuel and headed for Nagarjuna Sagar. I hit a Sai Baba temple on the way. The last thing I imagined to come across some 80 kms away from Hyderabad. I had to stop and I stepped in.

The caretaker was very helpful since each temple usually has its own customs; and was kind enough to take me through all those. I donated 1116 rupees towards the temple and Puja for my family. I started once again after a stopover for close to one hour; having had my fill of temple food; and politely refusing a guy who wanted to tag along for the trip. I think I had to do this alone.

What am I really doing in life? Is this what I am supposed to do?

I checked into my room. It was rustic place with lizards creeping on walls and seeping walls. I was lucky enough to find a room.

My parents were in Hyderabad last month. I could never hide too many things from my folks. They realized work had taken its toll on me. I gradually became an alcoholic over the months . The pressure of sales is unlike none other. It leaves no time for your family or loved ones. I had forgotten my mom’s birthday for the first time in many years. I was losing it slowly and steadily. But it’s easier for others to give advice to us. Maybe they should step into our shoes for a while. But I was still giving a shot, for what it’s worth.

I headed for Nagarjuna Konda, an island. I was just carrying a diary with me. I just wanted to write. It was an uneventful trip, but it was well worth it. I had time for myself and sitting by the shore and writing. I was writing random things, about the birds flying by, the people on the ferry, the water, the dam and myself.

While we are so engrossed in our work, we tend to forget the things that we are passionate about. Maybe it was time to start doing exactly that. It was time to make a new start somewhere; this might well be that.

I headed back to my room in the evening and told the caretaker to bring me some whiskey and food. I was watching Wild Hogs. I think it was the most apt movie. Four guys head out into the country side doing what they really should be doing; and following their dreams.

I slept content that night in a town 200 kms away from Hyderabad. I liked the solitude. It was just me and the road. The drive back was relaxing. I was looking forward to Monday; and what it could possibly hold for me. I was looking forward to doing what I should have done long time back. It was time dig out of my savings; and put the money in what I truly believed in.

Project reltok started the next day. If you ask me, if I have a plan; I don’t. I don’t even have a revenue model. I just know it’s something I need to do. You can check it at

The house by the shore

One Response to “Journey so far…”

  1. VenkatNo Gravatar says:

    All the best dude.. U r the one person i’ll put my finger on if God tells me to name a guy who’ll sell himself for giving shape to his passion :)

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